That’s one of my favorite songs!
And it makes me remember that if I’m going to share the heartache I need to share the healing.
I’ve received some concerned commincations since the last post and I appreciate and am lightened by the love. But don’t worry, I’ll be good. Prayer, love and time will make things better.
In fact Saturday’s internal struggle has brought me to a new place. This is one of the reasons I won’t do anti-anxiety meds because I know from experience with my father’s death that I have to go through the gut-wrenching business to come out balanced, well as balanced as I get, and healthy. And I will.
If you know me you know I am a passionate person and less to the good often of extremes so when “the rain” hits, I need to let it come, but not let it consume to allow myself to work through whatever has presented itself. And I think that will mean stopping what I’m doing not trying to work through it and then picking myself back up and as Jeff’s motto was “Keep Moving Forward!”
I’m beginning to live this new life were Jeff is physically not a part, but is definitely with me always. Our love, our adventures, our struggles and our triumphs have change me and live in my soul to continue to work God’s plan. Like one of my favorite prayers tells me “God knows what he is about.” – John Henry Cardinal Newman.
I want to be around people who celebrate the experience of Jeff in their life, and not be dragged down by people who want me to be miserable. I want to do this differently – “people of hope see things differently.” Benedict XVI.
I am open to new experiences, I am learning a new lifestyle and the possibility of relationships in whatever form God leads me to, because I know He has whatever ready for me to unfold when His time is right, which is perfect.
God already brought me Buddy and all of you to hold me up.
I still appreciate and want you to be free to express your concern. Some of you I’d have to physically restrain not too, and I’m grateful, we all should be grateful for a love like that is what holds us all together.
Peace and Much Love and prayer,
LG
We can still break things. I have some mugs that are in my way.
You are an inspiration to me and my family and you always have been. Thank you for sharing your life with us and reminding us how strong God’s love is.
oh, i have extra mugs…i can add them to the toss pile O:-) <3
changing my name legally to binks – likely a crazy idea, right – just keep listing it as an alias? <3
Sorry I’m just catching up on the blog. I’m glad it’s gonna be a bright sunshiny day. You have a wonderful perspective–masking the pain isn’t true healing. You need to feel it, face it, then deal with it. I can’t say it enough–you amaze me. <3
God is helping to fill the hole in your heart….He will, in His time, do this in a way that may not be what you hope for, what you expect, or what you think you need…But our God, our loving, kind, gracious God, knows exactly what you need and when you need it. I know you cling to that, and the knowledge that He is there, even in the darkest nights. And I know you know that “…joy comes in the morning…” God bless you and hold you up, give you strength through peace that only He can provide. We love you and pray for you daily, as always little chica. D –